Who knew a coffee date could...

1) Inspire me to do something about my weight
2)Renew my self esteem enough to actually do something about my weight
3)Help me realise what amazing, truthful friends I have

Today my sister in law picked me up for a coffee date and off we went to a local starbucks to meet up with my good friend (who has now become a good friend of my SIL as well).

At first our topics were light, discussing rather graphic issues surrounding raising boys (we all have at least 1). Than as we sipped our coffees the topic turned to weight loss. At first I was skeptical discussing the topic with my SIL present as she is a VERY small girl and doesn't need to lose any weight. But as the conversation progressed, we discussed becoming a suport system for each other to lose weight and get in shape. I being the largest of the group am a little shy about what I weigh BUT it is apparent by just looking at myself in the mirror that anyone can see that I need some help!

If Duane and I want to have another baby I AM NOT getting pregnant again before I lose at least 70/80 lbs. Now believe me I know that is a high number but that is my goal. I could probably (okay lets be honest DEFINATLY) stand to lose a little more than that (say a total of 100 lbs) but I want to lose at least that before trying to get pregnant again...So needless to say I have a long & hard journey ahead of me! Thanks to great friends who love me and want me around for a long time (and not being afraid to tell me that if I continue the way I am I won't be), I think this time around I CAN DO IT. I have done it before (although I didn't have such a daunting amount to lose) and I WILL do it again.

Although I am not brave enough to announce to the world on my public blog what I weigh or even post a before photo for that matter I am hoping to be able to talk about my triumphs and obsticles in a candid way (as I am not even sure I even have any readers). Hopefully "blogging" about my weight loss will help me reach my goals.

I am scared and I am optimistic. It's hard to stand on a scale in front of my 2 closest friends (especially one who weights a mere 135 lbs) and be held accountable for what a mess I have allowed myself to get into.

So here's to hoping a healthy diet, a little excercise and some good friends (and NO more coffee) will help me get on the right path so a better, healthier and SMALLER version of me!

Thanks girls for telling me like it is and being willing to help me through this weightloss journey. I am sure that there is going to be tears and luaghter and there is no one I would rather go through it with than you two!