I am
mourning this week; for the death of my childhood friendships! It is sad and I have wept! It is a story I do NOT wish to share as I
don’t want ANY ONE to feel that I have made them feel as I have felt this
week!
But it is a
death that has hit me hard! 20-30+ years of friendship gone! It has been a long time coming, like a
disease that has consumed our body of friendship and slowly worked its way
throughout! I would love to have someone
or something to blame but all I can come up with is LIFE!
LIFE that 4
letter word that can mean suffering and pain OR it can mean love, triumph,
laughter and joy! LIFE is change! Sometimes that change is the loss of a loved
one and sometimes change is new life!
This change
has brought me away from social media and back into real life! I have taken a short (or perhaps long) hiatus
from Facebook! I want to spend more time
loving up on my kids, walking, talking, creating, loving, and working on
me! I want to spend less time comparing
myself to other people, what they look like, what they have, and spend more
time loving my LIFE! It has become a
negative space for me and been the cause of anxiety and depression! NO MORE!
This week
without Facebook I have colored, played, blogged, laughed with my husband, held
my husband’s hand, worked on my business, cuddled sick children, kissed a
sleeping toddler on the forehead, cleaned up vomit and played video games with
my son!
This
weekend brings weeping at a funeral (not the rhetorical kind), dancing at a
wedding, and laughing at a birthday party!
This is REAL LIFE people!
And while I
bid adieu to some friendships, I also welcome new friends! Who “get” me!
New friends who bring over a surprise Latte because they know I am
feeling sad! Who send me text messages
telling me I am beautiful! I love these
ladies, who came into my life when I needed them!
