LIFE

I am mourning this week; for the death of my childhood friendships!  It is sad and I have wept!  It is a story I do NOT wish to share as I don’t want ANY ONE to feel that I have made them feel as I have felt this week! 

But it is a death that has hit me hard! 20-30+ years of friendship gone!  It has been a long time coming, like a disease that has consumed our body of friendship and slowly worked its way throughout!  I would love to have someone or something to blame but all I can come up with is LIFE!

LIFE that 4 letter word that can mean suffering and pain OR it can mean love, triumph, laughter and joy!  LIFE is change!  Sometimes that change is the loss of a loved one and sometimes change is new life!

This change has brought me away from social media and back into real life!  I have taken a short (or perhaps long) hiatus from Facebook!  I want to spend more time loving up on my kids, walking, talking, creating, loving, and working on me!  I want to spend less time comparing myself to other people, what they look like, what they have, and spend more time loving my LIFE!  It has become a negative space for me and been the cause of anxiety and depression!  NO MORE!

This week without Facebook I have colored, played, blogged, laughed with my husband, held my husband’s hand, worked on my business, cuddled sick children, kissed a sleeping toddler on the forehead, cleaned up vomit and played video games with my son!

This weekend brings weeping at a funeral (not the rhetorical kind), dancing at a wedding, and laughing at a birthday party!  This is REAL LIFE people! 

And while I bid adieu to some friendships, I also welcome new friends!  Who “get” me!  New friends who bring over a surprise Latte because they know I am feeling sad!  Who send me text messages telling me I am beautiful!  I love these ladies, who came into my life when I needed them!