I am tired! But I lay here and a million thoughts are racing through my head, that and I am waiting for one of my children to wake up. Chances are that they will wake up 5 minutes after I finally fall asleep! Murphy's Law you are so cruel!
My fingers are crossed so tightly that they are turning blue (this is metaphorical of course)...so much is up in the air right now, which is another way of saying that so much possibly can either go VERY right for us or VERY wrong for us! Here's hoping that this time next year I can look back and say that it went VERY right for us (no matter which way it goes). Sounds cryptic doesn't it?
Will our condo sell?
Will Duane get excepted into the nursing program?
Will I go back to my old job? Or find a job that better suits our current needs?
Stayed tuned in the next few months too find out.
To be continued...
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Insomnia
Monday, June 27, 2011
Like many women (small & big alike) I DETEST wearing a swimsuit but yesterday morning I stepped out of the shower with freshly shaven legs and stood in front of my dresser and pulled all 4 swimsuits that I purchased 4 years ago for our wedding/honeymoon and tried them all on to find the one that made me look the least hideous! I am nearly 4 lbs lighter than I was when I got married (and only 96 lbs over weight but that's a blog in itself) BUT after having 2 children the weight has shifted to mostly my tummy and needless to say I quickly tossed aside the 3 "tankinis" that no longer had the ability for full coverage in that area and opted for the safer 1 peice black swimsuit with a tank top over it!
As we made the hour long drive to the waterslides for my oldest friends sons birthday party I waivered as to whether I would unleash the beast and hit the pool. With a relativley young baby I always had the excuse that he was too young for the pool to fall back on while Duane and Devon hit the slides.
As the party started and all the guests began arriving (a small group of old friends mainly with the addition of spouses and our children) and the men began stripping down to their suits and taking the kids on the slides while the women fluttered and slowly (and I mean SLOWLY) began to get in their suits. While none of the girls at the waterslides have what society says is beautiful body types I love these girls (even when we rarely get together) and I see NOTHING but beauty! I heard several comments that stopped me in my tracks. One went as far to apologize before putting on her suit! The only one who claimed to be "okay" with her body was the only one who didn't throw on a suit and hit the family hot tub...which spoke louder than any comment that she could have made.
And as I watched these women with their families and their children I saw something that I thought was SO mind altering. I saw my friends, 3 beautiful women whose children adored them. I saw kisses and hugs and giggles. I saw happy (mostly) children who LOVED these women! And I bet if we had lined up my beautiful friends next to models in bikinis yesterday their children (and mine) would have ignored those women and made a beline straight to their mommies because to them we are the most beautiful women there are. WHY? Because our children are pure and have not yet been tainted by what society says is beautiful. And I realised that I want to be more like my son, I want to see the beauty that someone has inside and not judge people based on what other people tell me is beautiful, because in the end what is important? Being a good mom and my friends are he most beautiful women I know!
So as I face my weight lost journey (24.7 lbs and counting) I want to continue to do this for my health because I want to be here to continue being a good mom, but I know that even though I don't fit what society says is beautiful I have 2 little boys who think that I am the most beautiful women in the world! AND if my friends love me as much as I love them chances are they think I am beautiful too!
As we made the hour long drive to the waterslides for my oldest friends sons birthday party I waivered as to whether I would unleash the beast and hit the pool. With a relativley young baby I always had the excuse that he was too young for the pool to fall back on while Duane and Devon hit the slides.
As the party started and all the guests began arriving (a small group of old friends mainly with the addition of spouses and our children) and the men began stripping down to their suits and taking the kids on the slides while the women fluttered and slowly (and I mean SLOWLY) began to get in their suits. While none of the girls at the waterslides have what society says is beautiful body types I love these girls (even when we rarely get together) and I see NOTHING but beauty! I heard several comments that stopped me in my tracks. One went as far to apologize before putting on her suit! The only one who claimed to be "okay" with her body was the only one who didn't throw on a suit and hit the family hot tub...which spoke louder than any comment that she could have made.
And as I watched these women with their families and their children I saw something that I thought was SO mind altering. I saw my friends, 3 beautiful women whose children adored them. I saw kisses and hugs and giggles. I saw happy (mostly) children who LOVED these women! And I bet if we had lined up my beautiful friends next to models in bikinis yesterday their children (and mine) would have ignored those women and made a beline straight to their mommies because to them we are the most beautiful women there are. WHY? Because our children are pure and have not yet been tainted by what society says is beautiful. And I realised that I want to be more like my son, I want to see the beauty that someone has inside and not judge people based on what other people tell me is beautiful, because in the end what is important? Being a good mom and my friends are he most beautiful women I know!
So as I face my weight lost journey (24.7 lbs and counting) I want to continue to do this for my health because I want to be here to continue being a good mom, but I know that even though I don't fit what society says is beautiful I have 2 little boys who think that I am the most beautiful women in the world! AND if my friends love me as much as I love them chances are they think I am beautiful too!
Monday, June 20, 2011
I want to...
- spend the remaining time on mat leave inhaling in my family, I want to stuff as much love and fun into the next 6 months that I can!
- see if I can go green
- see how much money we can save if I start buyng used and stop buying "stuff" we don't need
- be a better wife and mother
- show appreciation to those in my life who deserve it (and there are many)
- become a healthier me
- gett out of debt and live with in our means
- encourage my husband to live his dream and go back to school
- persue my passions more activley
Blog posts to follow...
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Brothers
My heart melts when I see my 2 boys together! I envision a special friendship and bond between the 2 of them that I may never understand! I can see their relationship growing and changing everyday and am so proud to be their mom and get to watch these 2 boys grow up together!
Friday, April 22, 2011
Spencer Thomas Brolund
Born March 7, 2011
10 lbs 10 oz
8:50 am
My second born perfect son!
Welcome SPENCER THOMAS BROLUND
My second born perfect son!
Welcome SPENCER THOMAS BROLUND
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