No more faith in the medical system!

Over the past two weeks I have been told 3 times that this time I am not going home with a baby...No baby yet and still no plan. Yesterday I was told that they baby is looking like it is almost 10 lbs...WOW 10 lbs. So although they are no longer concerned about the amniotic fluid they are concerned about the baby making it through my small pelvis without getting stuck which can cause major problems so it was decided that I would be having a c-section. That is fine with me as long as baby comes out HEALTHY! My regular obstretician told me that monday would be the day but he would be on holidays and so he contacted one of the other obstreticians that work out of Peace Arch Hospital and I had an appointment this morning to meet her and I guess have an "assessment".

When I saw her this morning I was told that b/c I am not an emergency c-section that I am not "scheduled" for monday and I may get in monday, OR tuesday, OR wednesday etc...depending on IF someone who is scheduled goes into labour and ends up having and emergency c-section and than and only than I can have their spot. OR the other option, I can go into labor and have an emergency c-section myself. So once again I let the Dr. get my hopes up and than was told "NO". The surgeon/Obstretician also informed me that I will be a "difficult" c-section due to the fact that I am overweight and that she would like to have two surgeons in the OR. Just what I needed to hear to ease my mind...Because I am so not anxious enough already. I was also told that starting monday I pretty much have to fast for a surgery everyday until each day I get a phone call to either come in or that I can start eating again! Sounds like that is really well thought out! I HATE DR'S!!!

I got into the car to drive home and burst into tears. Did I just choose the wrong hospital. Should I have gone with a bigger hospital with more opportunity to do c-sections/inducements. And possibly can deal with "difficult" pregnancies? I really wanted to go to Peace Arch b/c my Aunt is there BUT in hind site this decision may not have been right for me/us afterall. IF I decide to do this again I think I may have to rethink my hospital situation. NOT to mention that my maternity clinic Dr is also on holidays so the 2 Dr's I have seen for the last 9 months are both away and I have been completely abandoned! The medical system SUCKS!