Life & Death

So I love my life. Dispite the trials and tribulations financially that we have faced recently and will continue to face as Duane get's laid off within the next few weeks I LOVE MY LIFE. We have a happy & healthy 2 year old. We have a baby on the way, we have each other and a happy marriage! We may not own our dream home but our little condo is a HOME! We don't go without any basic essentials and although we desire some things we cannot have we have so much more than other people.

BUT with the death of Lyle it has me pondering the meaning of it all. Do we go through life trying to "live" only to cease to exist it a snap of a finger? Where do we really go when we leave this earth? Does our soul still exist and is Lyle watching us from "heaven" and worrying about us? I know I can never phathom all the possibilites that life or death hold for us. But what if an after life really is just something that we grasp onto to make life worth living?

I see beauty and miracles everyday, and I know that there MUST be a higher power...So I guess I need to take comfort in that and know that this life must serve a deeper purpose and that Lyle is serving his purpose right now.

WE STILL MISS YOU LYLE, EACH AND EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY! IT'S SO HARD TO LET GO YOU AND EVEN HARDER TO WORRY ABOUT THE ONES THAT YOU LEFT BEHIND. IF YOU ARE WATCHING OVER US RIGHT NOW MAYBE SEND SOME JOY YOUR SON AND WIFES WAY! WE LOVE YOU!