So much for...

So much for posting regularly! I find life is so crazy right now and I have a hard time keeping my thoughts straight in my head...never mind getting them out on paper. I also find that although I am a pretty open person I am feeling pretty reserved right now and want to keep many of my thoughts to myself.

I have been craving creativity lately. Before I met Duane (in what I like to call my tortured youth years), I wrote some pretty great poetry, I sketched and I wrote some pretty great short stories/essays. I haven't had a creative outlet in nearly 5 years. It isn't because Duane wouldn't encourage me if I was passionate about it, it's more along the lines of my "darkness" is gone. I am no longer a "tortured youth" and as sad as it is being "dark" was where my creativity stemmed from. I am in a different place in my life than I was those years and find that my creativity stayed behind. Now instead of a broken heart or backstabbing friends I worry about money, paying the bills, not getting laid off etc...not exactly the base for a great poem or art piece.

So how am I supposed to be creative when I am for the most part content??? I was think photography? I have always ALWAYS taken lots (and lots) of photos, the only issue with this is that I would like a new digital SLR camera in order to pursue this outlet/passion. We don't have the extra cash to spend $1000 on a camera so I much wait and save. I really think that this is something that I could be GREAT at!

That's what has been on my mind lately. That and Disneyland! As crazy as it sounds all I can think about (besides my daily happenings of course) is a digital SLR camera and Disneyland?